My soul is under constant attacks. I have spent most of my last ten years assaulted by suicidal thoughts. I have been struggling with bipolar disorder for the last ten yeras. I had lost my self-esteem, my academic life, and my future. I feel that my entire life as I had once known it came to an end. My life is gone, even my will to live is shattered. It is over, done with, and I have nothing to hold onto, nothing to keep me going. One of my worst nightmares became a reality this week. I have been overcome by feelings of sadness, isolation and hopelessness, convinced that my state of despair is the only thing I had ever known. This is my darkest times . I can't see an end to it; I can't imagine ever being happy again. I am fighting a lost battle. I shouldn't have to fight this battle; one that I am not winning.

hope >>>>>>>>>>>>>.........brother
u r name tells that u have inner good side
just try to look positively in every thing
even ur sadness
consider it as astart for happiness
keep in mind that we build our futer and we determine our present
we controle time not time controles us
thus ,, be strong enough to meet the needs of ur lif .
and then say loudly
i m happy

and u will be im sure

nothing that has a bigning its surely will have an end
don't lose faith in ALLAH
alwayes repeat "astghfer Allah
and la 7ol wa la gowata ella bellah